Everything sucks right now. I'm simultaneously very, very depressed but also experiencing irritability that chokes me and mania/anxiety that prevents me from sleeping. Doc is recommending a swap-out of one of my meds. I hope it works, because right now it feels like I'm *this close* to spinning out of control. And for me, out of control is a dangerous thing.

I have so much to write about and express, but I just can't get the words out right now. Later, I hope.