October 8, 2009

• It's Cold and Dark

  I meant the title to be a literal description of the weather today, but I won't deny that it applies to my mental state as well. Things are feeling almost hopeless with school. I'm sick inside because of it. It's also pretty bad just waiting around for a family member to die. You can't grieve yet but you want to, and you crave resolution but there isn't one.

  I get a weather report every morning in my email, and the subject in today's said "Thursday's Canadian Guest":
  
  A blast of cold air from Canada today marks the end of mild weather for
  much of the state and the cool temperatures will last into the weekend.
  
  
  
  Not only will there be temperatures 30 to 40 degrees colder today
  than they were yesterday we'll also have rain changing over to snow
  very early in the day.
  

  Oh, Colorado. I've lived here all my life and I'm still not used to those crazy weather changes. Also, I should be seeing the sunrise about now, but it's so dark outside that it looks like the middle of the night. For a moment when I first woke up, I thought someone had played a prank on me by setting my clocks forward (à la Amélie). Then I realized I don't have clocks, just a cell phone (which won't let me change the time on it anyway).

  
  (Watch the whole clip if you can, but if not, at least watch from 1:50 to 3:30.)

  Tomorrow is a mandatory furlough day for state employees, so I'll be off...but without pay. At least I still have a job, and to be honest, I could use the study time anyway. I'll be in a social coma until probably the end of the month.

  • 9:08 am
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